Wednesday, 12 November 2008

Still Here

Just a bit zoomy. Full moon perhaps. Someone I knew just died. I've not slept much. My head is feeling peeled. But I am hanging on and keeping a grip of myself. If I start trying to write anything interesting there will be pages of unutterable shite that I'll feel compelled to delete. But I just thought I'd pop my head up and say I'm still here, and have been enjoying reading your blogposts etc. I feel like I need nailing to the floor to be honest. Ok. Deep breaths. Pretend it's just the flu.

4 comments:

la said...

Pretend it's just the flu. Wear a blanket. Drink hot drinks. All will be well.

Marian said...

Sorry to hear about your loss. Zoomy and sleepless, me too. Full moon not perhaps but certainly. Some people say, it's nonsense, it's all in your head. But full moon makes me zoomy and sleepless even when I have no idea that it's full.

Abysmal Musings said...

Well, shortly after pressing post it was my turn with the pukey-shitty bug, and number one son too. Those two devils come and empty you out from both ends, and then shake hands in the middle. Not nice.

Still feel as if I've been beaten on the back all night long.

As for full moons - so many people seem to be affected by it, but there seems to be so little actual research or evidence out there. In fact the first result I found says: "Belief that the full moon is associated with psychiatric disturbance persists despite 50 years research showing no association."

http://www.bipolarworld.net/Phelps/ph_2005/ph1355.htm

Goes on to remark that "Prior to the advent of modern lighting the moon was a significant source of nocturnal illumination that affected sleep-wake cycle, tending to cause sleep deprivation around the time of full moon. This partial sleep deprivation would have been sufficient to induce mania/hypomania in susceptible bipolar patients and seizures in patients with seizure disorders. The advent of modern lighting attenuated this lunar effect, especially in modern urban areas, where most 20th century studies of lunar effects on the mind have been conducted."

Well, it's very dark where I live! But of course we have lighting indoors...

There must be some old association with moonlight - it is a very intense and strange light - magical even, to go down the road of cliche. But for there to be some ingrained connection predating modern lighting, one would have to posit some evolutionary advantage to going up during the full moon? Perhaps people got more done, made more babies, killed more animals, improved their survival prospects? Who knows, I just know that silver light feels like electricity going through me.

Marian said...

Like electricity, yes, exactly. I've lived in downtown Munich for eight years, back in the '90ies. Lots of street lights, never really dark. Anyway...

Off topic: Just changed the settings for Spring Tide. Thought, you might want to know. Haven't been there for weeks, so I didn't see your comments before tonight. I think, it's Eckhart Tolle who says, that when you listen to people's stories (of suffering), it's basically always the same story...

Glad to have blogosphere-met you too. :)