Friday, 9 January 2009

Drained and Empty

Just feeling old, rickety, empty, bleak, no desire for the future, no relish for the past, grim, anxious, blank and wide-awake. I guess the depakote is working again properly (the sight of incomprehension on people's faces when you explain, "Actually, these drugs are meant to make you depressed," always irritates me). Enough moaning and groaning. Have a cheery picture. Night.


LoopyKate said...

Hmm. I often feel that way.
I have been dodging the depakote mostly out of fear that I will feel more so since it is my 'depressive states' that I most abhor and which seem to dominate. Hypo mania I can live with, sometimes enjoy. 'They' seem more intent on taking that away, despite me having tried to convince them that I am now too old and decrepit to go out riding shopping trolleys down the high street in my pyjamas att 4am. Anti-depressants on the other hand just bring on the interminable rapid cycling and mixed state - which is quite possibly the worst of both. So can't win. Although I have considered a combination of the 2 which I anticipate either levelling me out or exploding me in half.It's a mind-field or mine-field (not sure which).
Anyway, i do hope you 'mellow out' very soon.

Lola Snow said...

That sounds a bit crappy D. Sorry about the bleakness, oh yeah and that photo is so fitting it's untrue! Hope it gets better,

Lola x

differentlysane said...

How do you do a smiley face with a look of incomprehension? - Just kidding. Sounds rubbish hope you feel better soon.

Take care,

Abysmal Musings said...

Thanks all