Tuesday, 17 February 2009

Off to See the Shrink

And I wish I wasn't feeling angry, nervous, agitated, but I am. I don't know why. Well I do - it is because I don't know what tack I'm going to take, what lies I'm going to make, what state I'm going to fake - hell, I don't even know if the last psych has been rotated and there will be a new one, or if it will be the young boy so wet behind the ears the vernix is still clinging to him. I just want to be shot of them all. Which of course is liable to be interpreted as 'illness'.

Oh god, wish me luck.

What a strange, demented feeling it gives me when I realise I have spent whole days before this inkstone, with nothing better to do, jotting down at random whatever nonsensical thoughts that have entered my head. Yoshida Kenko, circa 1330


Mandy said...

Good luck D


Lola Snow said...

God I hope it went well. I have never had the outcome I have wanted with shrinks. I have either come across as too normal and therefore attention seeking, or a ball of anxious energy distracting from any problem I want to discuss. Fingers crossed for you

Lola x

Abysmal Musings said...

Thanks both - more detail here.