Friday, 9 October 2009

I'm feeling a bit like this



I forget what the jargon is. Derealisation? Depersonalisation? Whatever it is, I feel lace-like, and the world feels washed-out. I shake my head to clear it and click back into it, but it isn't working. It is a permanent state of tension, of waiting. I am bored with it. I want to reclaim the 8 months of the year that are spent in slump, fizz or the otherworld back for me and my family. And the pills don't fucking do it.

4 comments:

Scream said...

I just posted to my blog that I was dissociated. 1/2 of a xanax cured it and now I'm feeling too much.. Can't ever win it seems.

karenintheory said...

The picture is beautiful.

As for the dissociation, I suggest a good long sleep and hope for the best. Sorry I can't offer anything else, but that's usually what works for me.

Louise H said...

sorry you feel that way - doesn't look pleasant :( A good visual there though. I don't know my art but it looks vaguely like picasso, or am I confused...

David said...

Yeah it's Picasso!

The depersonalissociationalishness wore off after a couple of days.

Just as easy to blame it on different worlds in conjunction as anything going on in my little head.

Take care all, Dx