Tuesday, 28 May 2013

Manic Depression

Does it even exist? Well, yes, in so far as some people are sometimes more up and down than the average. But surely that is just an anomaly of the bell-curve? Does it exist, given that with knowledge, self-discipline, wisdom, and experience one can divert the worst before it happens? Does it exist given that all the classic accounts date back from the 50s and 60s and society is utterly different now? Does it exist because sometimes I might want to strip off in public out of sheer exuberance or collapse weeping on the high st? Does it exist because doctors say so, or because it is a useful shorthand for a certain type of person? One who may do many amazing and outrageous things? I do not know anymore. I have always been different. 1 in a 100. It often feels that the diagnosis is purely for the 1 in 100, and as meaningless as that. It is helpful, because it describes familiar territory, but no more than that. I don't know many people who have tried to kill themselves, apart from 'manic-depressives'. I just don't know anymore.